Florida wasn't far enough.

Some of you may or may not be aware that I was in Florida for a few days. My reasons for being there are, as usual, not quite logical. But I will go into that in a bit, first, some thoughts on being here.

I find that each time I go there, I like it a little bit less. And the last time I was there in December-January for the week of hell, I was pretty much neutral on the place. However, this time found me disliking it. It's not the physical changes, it's not the weather. It's the memories. Most of the old gang has moved on. Few of "us"(I use that term loosely) still remain there. We are at college, or starting new jobs, or both. And the few that have stayed, well, aren't doing much with themselves for the most part. This isn't true of everyone, just some.

It's also the memories. There are many good ones there, that is for sure. But whenever I'm there, I find that the bad ones outweigh the good ones heavily. Yes, it's some Laura stuff, but it's also the mentality I had when I was there. The best way to put it I think, is that I do not like who I was then. I probably liked me back then when I was me back then, but I like myself more now. I like being motivated, working hard, and such things. Past me liked living in the double-wide, being lazy, and well...being lazy. It was fun, but it really isn't present me. I need to be doing things.

I think that's a large reason I'm so much happier in Charlotte. I am motivated, I have things to work for. I have things that I accomplish here. I feel like I have a lot more structure. And that, having structure and accomplishing things, I think are what makes a place home. The first time that I remember calling Charlotte home was back in November. I was surprised that I had even said it, but I had. And I didn't feel like going to Florida was that big of a deal. I didn't really care to be there.

It's nothing against Pensacola. It's still a nice place to be I suppose. The beaches are nice. It's sunny. Warm most of the year. It's just I don't feel the emotional attachment I used to. And you know, I'm really completely okay with it. But don't feel bad if I don't go back every couple of months like I used to. I'm happier where I am now.

Well, that's it for today, I might clean this up later as I'm sure the flow is horrible, I am somewhat distracted right now. And Friday I should have an update up about why exactly I was here. Anyway, happy Wednesday to you all. Have a good one.

where the deer and the antelope play